What ???

Well well well ..

It is a very much BLUR
:|

that feeling, just back and forth,
comes and goes..
Just like that.

What a very hard time I've been going through.
Xixixi.

It's seems useless.
Just like MAE says..

idling or making useless progress

hemmehemmeh :|

i dont blame anybody.
It's not his fault. .And it's not mine too.
It's my nature feeling. .
Hahaha.

To my feeling..
I would say that. ."IF YOU'RE WILLING, LET IT GO"
i hate my self for always being drawn. .Drawn. . .And drawn.

LOST. .
I am lost. .Never find any ways for me to be set free.

Hhhhhhhhh.

SNOW ON THE SAHARA

Only tell me that you still want me here
when you wander off out there
to those hills of dust and hard winds that blow
in that dry white ocean alone
Lost out in the desert.
You are lost out in the desert.

But to stand with you in a ring of fire
I'll forget the days gone by
I'll protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight
lost out in the desert.

If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track
I'll be the moon that shines on your path
The sun may blind our eyes,
I'll pray the skies above
for snow to fall on the sahara.
If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts
I'll hold you up and be your way out
And if we burn away
I'll pray the skies above,
for snow to fall on the sahara.

Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders
with veils of silk and gold
when the shadows come and darken your heart
leaving you with regrets so cold
Lost out in the desert.


*beloved beautiful song.
It might be for you,boy :)
hahahahaha

"for one more day"

Huuh. .
This book is the most beautiful full of truth book i have ever read.
It tells about family.
All in it is a true and right statement.
And many of it just same as mine..
That's why i love it. .
Hundreds of beautiful words inside it.. make me realise and learn more about life.
Just like this statement ..

"behind all our stories is always our mother's story. Because hers is where ours begins"

well, we never realise about that.
But, if you just think about it seriously,
it is so true..
I love this book so much.
Lots and lots of precious things that i can take from it.
:))

discard ??

Hmmmmmmm. .
Jadi ngerasa terbuang..
Eh salah deng. Dibuang gitu aja.
Gw g bs marah.. Toh ini emg kputusan dia utk mundur.
Hahahaa.
:|
kalo ditanya sedih ato ngga..
Sedih banget.
For almost a year, I've tried to opened my heart..
Yaaa,well now it's open.
Tapi...
Blm juga apa2 uda kandas. Hahahahaha
*nice!
Dari hal ini juga, gw jd mikir kalo dia emg g bisa berjuang..
Ada sahabat gw yg blg, kl dia emg syg,dia ga akan berhenti gitu aja.
Hmmmm, she got her point anyway.
Dan ada juga yg blg, kl dia emg berhenti skr, berarti dia ngga bner2 syg,karna g mau bkin gw lepas dari beban trauma gw.
*fuck banget nih..
Hahahahaha
skarang jadi serba salah.
Karna gw emg gmn dia.
Gw g mau yg msti maksain dia.
Kalo emg dia tralu takut, mending berhenti aja.
Dibanding kdpanny malah jd parno lah, rungsing lah.
Karna sampe skr gw msh bngung banget.
What are we now ??
Friends ??
Road to a 'not friends' ???
Rival ??
Or what ??